This show has gone to shit

this show isn't as good as it used to be, i'll admit but i think it's a complete lie when people say that it doesn't mess with your emotions. season 10 and 11 weren't the best but i've cried a lot and for no reason at all. this show just pulls you back in no matter what and i'll continue watching the show even after seventeen more seasons because i can't think of a day where i won't remember one of these characters or mourn their losses.

shonda im begging you please pleaseee stop

At this point, I think this show is holding me hostage. The episodes follow the same beats almost all the time and when they don't, they're even more boring. I can't remember when I last cared about a single one of these characters or felt moved by anything going on. Thing is, I've watched this far, and stopping doesn't feel like an option. I'm watching out of spite, I can't wait for this to be over. How long will it go on? Please, it's enough now.